MoVIe
09.30.04 (3:29 pm) [edit]Suicide Club, or Jiatsu Sakuru. its a movie i heard of from my friend. he was tellin me about it, how its all sick and stuff. so i checked it out online. yea, it is lol. what i got from my research, was that its a movie about suicide cases in Japan. not real cases, but ones that depict on "where society is leading japan" or something like that. i havent seen the movie yet, but thats what the site told me. anyways, all i know is it opens up with a horribly graphic scene in which 54 school girls all throw themselves in front of an oncoming train in groups because of who knows what.
apparently, when released in the U.S., there were people that killed themselves from watching it. o yea, this is a horror film, not a documentary in case u were wondering. i want to see it, but i shudder to think of what i might see lol. hopefully il see it soon, then write more about it. its supposed to be pretty good
Last exile
09.27.04 (1:10 pm) [edit]heres the opening to Last Exile. this song is simply amazing. ive never heard anything even remotely like it, and its slowly rising on my favorite songs list. dont let the length of the lyrics fool u, its over 6 min long. Cloud Age Symphony:
just keep on trying, keep on flying
I will be the light
Yoake wo hitotsu no hajimari to suru nara
Ima ga kita beki toki da to suru nara
Me wo aketeirareru to omou
Itsuka kimi ni mita kibou ni nita shou e
Mayoi wo hitotsu no kagayaki to suru ni wa
Ten to ten wo tsunaide ten takaku tatsu ni wa
Kimi to no Cloud Age Symphony
Kumo no umi no mukou ni hikari ga sasu hou e
Ah
Mahou no you na isshun ni aeru no ka?
Tsumetai yo wo hikikae ni
Futari wa habataite
Eien wo tsukamu Sono hate ni wa..........
Sekai wa hiroi Seikai wo hiroi Aoi sora ni mau
Hi wo matoi noboritsume fukai BEAT wo utsu
Kotae wa Cloud Age Symphony
Kumo no umi wo kimi to hikari ga sasu hou e
Ah
Mahou no you na isshun wo hikikae ni
Hohoemu kyou wo Te no hira ni
Ippai no yoake wo
Eien wo tsukamu Sono hate ni wa..........
Ah
Mahou no you na isshun wo hikikae ni
Hohoemu kyou wo Te no hira ni
Ippai no yoake wo
Eien wo..........
beautiful Cloud Age Symphony
yay yay yay
09.24.04 (10:28 am) [edit]finally! after days of hardship trying to fix my computer, i have triumphed!!! no computer could ever be a match for me! for some reason, i couldnt do anything online that involved logging on to a website. i thought i had cookies disabled, but i didnt. it took me 4 days to find the problem, and i fixed it. so now im happy yay yay yay!
on a more awesome note, episode 26 of Wolf's Rain is the best... anything ive ever seen. the action sequences and the music they played in the background, made me cry. literally. heres basically what happened to make me cry:
Lord Darcia met Lord Jagura, the sister of Darcia’s beloved deceased wife. She is madly in love with Darcia, and is also trying to open the gates to paradise using Kiba, the show’s main character. Jagura stabs Darcia in the shoulder with a poisoned dagger, and the two exchange a few blows with their swords before Darcia collapses on the ground. Hige, another main character, lunges from behind and attacks Jagura just as she's about to finish Darcia off. She draws her sword to fend off the attack, and then throws it at Hige, nailing him in the back. This wounds him badly, and Toboe and Tsume, two other main characters, rush over to help him. Kiba has already escaped from Jagura’s machine, and now appears to stop her. This is when the awesome music starts. “Paradise is ours,” he says, “we’re taking it back!” They trade a few blows, each blocking each other’s attacks from connecting. Hige painfully stands up, exclaiming “I promised to make things right... i gave my word!” He lunges again at Jagura, connecting with her shoulder, and slams into the ground leaving a huge splatter of blood. Seeing his opportunity, Kiba attacks and bites into her neck, and blood flies outwards. She stumbles into the arms of the revived Darshia. “Darshia…” is all she can say as he plunges his sword through he chest and she collapses onto the ground. This is when the music stops.
That scene has been running through my head nonstop since saturday. ive watched it so many times, not even funny. hell, i just watched it like 20 seconds ago. cant wait till tommorow
rain
09.18.04 (1:10 pm) [edit]its raining! its raining! hahaha. this would be so much mroe fun if i didnt get sick :(
im good tho. who likes poker!!?!?!? i know i do! i brought this up cuz ive decided to do that poker championship tournament thing where u can win like 5 mil. i just gotta wait 5 years, enter online and win that, then win the tournie. il be set for life... heh heh
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09.17.04 (10:29 am) [edit]here ends another week of life, complete with heartbreak, sadness and the occasional school. neways, this is like a renaiscance (spl?) or literature-al revolution for me, cuz ive come up with many ideas for stories and things as such. hopefully, ill be able to create a short story to post on this site. that would be nice...
as long as im on the subject, i recently got my hands on some new manga ::happy:: Yep. Tsubasa RESERVoir Chronicles is one of the many i got, its kinda good, having a lot of characters from Clamp publishings but giving them new personalities(and making a new story with them). I also got Remote, which is one of my favorites now. A nice good mystery/detective not afraid to show some blood (and skin wink wink). But, my favorite one i got my hands on was Warriors of Tao. excellent, excellent book, also not afraid to show a little skin. pretty gory, and slightly weird, it holds a big status on my Manga to Get list, must have volume 2...
the last poem
09.13.04 (11:15 am) [edit]this is the last poem i wrote, having to do with the journey to self acceptance. im nto too pleased with this one myself, but i guess its ok. i know it couldve been better.
[u]Welcome to Paradise[/u]
Years of Searching
have i found it?
always working on the way to get away
with fallen angels
Heaven stayed open
their voices filled with joy
Welcome to paradise
i was there all along
My second Poem
09.12.04 (1:57 pm) [edit]here it is, poem #2. while the first one dealt with sadness and depression, this is stage 2 on the road to acceptance. o yea, id like to give credit to maria (none of you know her) for she helped me on this.
[u]Under the Sky so Blue[/u]
under a sky so blue,
will anyone ever find me?
lost and never true,
im not sure who i am
where can i go
who can i be
i dont think i'll iver know
captured by unknowing
theres no sense of time
wandering without knowing
is my life even mine?
do i even want it to be?
Poem
09.11.04 (1:05 pm) [edit]OK- i wrote 3 poems. each go in chronological order, based on different feelings a person feels, from depression, to confusion, to acceptance. hopefully, ul like this first one-
[u]I Hate Myself and Want to Die[/u]
So hopeless and empty inside
Why won't anyone help me?
trapped in a dark depression,
a swirling void of loneliness
A rash on society
do i hold a purpose?
is it wrong to continue living
when i hate myself and want to die?
transgression
09.07.04 (11:01 am) [edit]what if everybody in the world was exactly the same?
well, at least when they were born. in a world where the only differences between you and anyone else are decided when you are born, there exists a process to choose the physical and mental attributes that you will have throughout the rest fo your life. this gaurantees a great reduction in todays world involving social problems and depression. thus, happiness is worldspread. if people could decide on their physical attributes and skills, then why shouldnt there be?
but someone is not happy. could he have chosen wrongly? no, impossible, the system is without flaw. then was there a malfunction? not likely. then why? why is this boy unhappy. the answer must be at the source. join this unknowing hero in his quest for the truth, as he uncovers much more.
GTO
09.04.04 (12:40 pm) [edit]First the dinosaurs roamed the Earth, eating nothing but cavemen and eucalyptus plants. Then a nuclear bomb went off and made them all extinct, which gave rise to the radioactive people who illumintaed the eternal night that followed. Then it was boring for a long time until the late 80's (thats 1980's), when i was born, Sengu the Wolf, age 16, destined to be a great warrior.
lol i love that, took it from GTO vol 6 and modified it. the real one is:
First the dinosaurs roamed the Earth, eating nothing but cavemen and eucalyptus plants. Then a nuclear bomb went off and made them all extinct, which gave rise to the radioactive people who illumintaed the eternal night that followed. Then it was boring for a long time until the late 70's (thats 1970's), when i was born, Eikichi Onizuka, age 22, destined to be a great teacher.
love that series
school
09.02.04 (1:19 pm) [edit]hey everybody! school has started for me, like 5 days ago. its fun and all, but kinda boring. ive been in my trade all the time. i go to a tech school, and my personal trade is Information Systems Technology woo0o!!! lol sry, the name just got changed so i gotta say it. right now im thirsty. be right bak. ::gets drink:: ok im good. neways, school is much different then what ive been doin for summer. despite bein skinny, im all out of shape an stuff. i cant run as much or fast as i used to. ill work at it.
school is cold! its hot outside, but the ac in my class is freezin