feel...aura thing
01.30.05 (2:52 pm) [edit]hey every1. remember when i posted that ...post ... about the auras and feeling thingies? i just discovered, that it works very well when playing poker!!! hahahaha ::counts cash::
think i found me a true calling here... dunno, must play more
eeeeeeyep
01.26.05 (11:46 am) [edit]im just sittin here, bored, eatin' my chips. then i thought of it. im gonna make the greatest compilation of techno/trance/electronica / dance and every other type i can think of cd!!!! if anyone has any suggestions as what i could add, they would be greatly apreciated
snow! omg snow! so much snow!
01.23.05 (3:17 pm) [edit]it snowed alot yesterday! freakin' blizzard! kinda. i went out shovelin, but for some reason, did not make much. only 25$. not cool. i was outside for like 4 hours, my lower jaw went numb. it was hard to make certain sounds, like M and P lol. then i watched Shaun of the Dead. that was a funny movie. i still gotta watch Patlabor 3, and ghost in the shell stand alone complex. i hate sundays...
long time
01.21.05 (11:33 am) [edit]wow, never leave tblog for more than a day. i got like alot of comments and unread mail. guess thats what i get for staying away for a week?
neways, its gonna snow tommorow woo!! lol sposed to be a big snowstorm. gonna be awesome. and... i found out that Nausicaa dvd comes out in 1 month! and Howl's Moving Castle is gonna be released in june! yay for me!
ive been busy watching Shingetsutan Tsukihime. thats a pretty good series. never heard of it? well il tell ya:
Tohno Shiki (names are backwards kinda in japan) was in a life threatening accident as a child, and now because of that he can see the lines that bind things together on all objects. "Death lines" if u will, and if cut they object will break apart; be it chair or human. He was given a pair of glasses to supress these lines so he cannot see them while he wears them. his father passes away, so his sister now becomes the head of the Tohno family. and he is asked to return there. One day, he takes off his glasses as he sees this girl, and kills her (she splits in 17 different pieces). He passes out and wakes up in the mansion of the Tohno household, no one rememebers anything about it. The girl that he killed shows up while he is going to school, and forces him to act as her bodygaurd and help her kill off the Shinso. Turns out, her name is Arcueid and she is a Shinto, a true vampire. the shinso are vampires created from the sucking of blood from a Shinto. the person she wants dead: Roa.
Who is this Roa? Can Arcuied be trusted? What is the connection between Arcueid and Shiki's upperclassman Ciel? and just what is the secret of the tohno household? all in all, its a worthwile series to watch.
Bananaphone!!!
01.14.05 (2:48 pm) [edit]Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring bananaphone
Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring bananaphone
I've got this feeling, so appealing
For us to get together and sing, sing !
Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring bananaphone
Ding dong ding dong ding dong ding donanaphone
It grows in bunches
I've got my hunches
It's the best, beats the rest
Cellular, Modular, Interactive odular
Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring bananaphone
Ping pong ping pong ping pong ping pananaphone
It’s no baloney
It’s ain’t a phoney
My cellular, bananular phone
Don’t need quarters, don’t need dimes
To call a friend of mine
Don’t need computers or TV
To have a real good time
I call for pizza, I call my car rent
I call the White House, have a chunk
I place a call around the world
Operator get me Beijing jing jing jing
(Musical Break)
Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring bananaphone
Ying yang ying yang ying yang ying yananaphone
It’s a real live mama and papaphone
A brother and a sister and a dogophone
A grandpa phone and a grandma phone too, oh yeah
My cellular, bananular phone
Bananaphone, ring ring ring It’s a phone with a peal
Bananaphone, ring ring ring Now you can have your phone and eat it too
Bananaphone, ring ring ring this song drives me, bananas
Bananaphone, ring ring ring…..
phobias!!!!
01.12.05 (4:24 am) [edit]hello everyone! here i am, 9:30 am home from school. cuz my bus never came. after i had waited outside for 40 minutes, toes all gangrene and everything. but thats beside the point
i felt like addressing some phobias and fears right now. whats everyone here afriad of? lol im afraid of 3 things: small spaces (claustrophobia), the dark (i forget the name), and heights a bit (acrophobia). yea i looked up the names. and yea i am afraid fo the dark!! laugh it up. go ahead. u never know what could be in the dark, waiting for u, whether it be supernatural or human, or even animal. scary
whats been goin down
01.11.05 (3:01 pm) [edit]hey everyone. sry i havent been postin anything in a while, school work and movies. takin up my time. so anyways, i just finished watchin the Vandread series. thats a great series. right now its snowing!! Lol
i felt bored too, so im gonna post the lyrics to an awesome song. and no, its not from an anime. music basically runs my life, that means just in case ya thought it was just anime lol
Digital Love- from Daft Punk
Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long
Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long
The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true
Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?
memory and love
01.04.05 (3:23 pm) [edit]sometimes its good to reminisce about the past, but not to dwell on. observing the past leaves no time for the present, which does not give way to the future. ive been thinking about the past these past few days, perhaps a bit too much maybe. what sticks out the most is first love. im sure no one can forget their first love.
it was about 2 years ago. we met through my friend. she was very pretty, a term i came to know as beauty. we hit it off almost instantly. after just 2 days of having known each other, she came out and told me that she liked me. not wanting to rush things, as i have been known to in the past, i told her i really didnt know how i felt about her. but as time went by, i discovered that i not only liked, but that i loved her. i decided that that may be something to keep to myself for a short time, but not telling her tore me up inside. the day i told her, i had butterflies in my stomach and was afraid of how she would react. after a short pause, she told me "im not sure how i feel about you. i dont think i do though."
my heart sunk. i felt terrible, all of my hopes crushed inside by 6 little words. i talked to her for 3 minutes more, then told her i had to leave to watch my sister. i didnt have to. being there felt awkward.
the next day, she I.M-ed me online. she told me how she really felt. she said, "im sorry about yesterday. i hadnt really thought about any of that, and your question caught me off gaurd. i felt kinda embarrassed too, but i think that i really do love you." that had to be the happiest moment of my life so far. no longer sulking, i couldnt think of anything to say, part from embarassment and part from not knowing what to say. the girl that was beautiful in every way to me; looks, personality, and any other attributes i cant think of right now; admitted her feelings to me. i couldnt believe it.
in the months or so that followed, i experienced holidays and happiness that never had any previous meaning before. holidays such as valentines day, and her birthday brought many happy memories. songs that i used to overlook now meant things to me. poetry, and scenery became as beautiful as her. i thought nothing could go wrong. but as once said by poet robert frost, "nothing gold can stay," as i soon realized that my golden happiness would come to an end.
i noticed one day that recently she had become a bit distant from me. we didnt talk as much on the phone, or see each other as often. when i did talk to her, she seemed as though something was bothering her. like deep down, she was hiding something from me. hiding not because it was a secret, though. it seemed as though it had someting to do with me.
one night, i felt as if something bad was going to happen. every song i heard had something to do with sadness. i barely slept that night, bothered by some unknown entity that tortured my love-struck thoughts.
the next day, i finally confronted her about it. i cannot remember the exact words, because as she said them mind went blank with confusion. she told me that she no longer felt the same way anymore. she apologized, and i told her it was alright. she had to leave, so i went home. the walk was depressing and full of confusion. when i opened my door, no one was home. i walked a few steps and was overcome by extreme sadness. tears welled up in my eyes and i collapsed to the ground. for 20 minutes, i could not move. sadness had taked control of my body, and it seemed the only thing i could do was cry.
after i collected myself, i watched a little tv until my family came home. i acted like nothing had happened. after dinner, i went down to my room. i thought about her just once, and instead of happy memories, it called forth the salty-sweet tears of sadness. i couldnt be seen like this in front of my family, so i took control and went in the shower. just before i went to sleep, i reflected on what happened that day. more tears came. for the next few days, i was depressed. but, it was all ok because we still talked every now and then.
i did not stay sad for long, nor did i become depressed. just knowing that i was capable to have the feelings of love and the certain sadness that can only come from losing the one you love made me happy. i hope to one day experience these feelings.
its new years!!!
01.01.05 (9:02 am) [edit]hello everyone!! it seems i havent done anything in a while here, i guess its cuz ive been busy. after christmas is always busy. gotta try out all ur new stuff! yea ive been playin the awesomest game. its called Breakdown, and its for xbox. if anyone has one, i suggest getting it. very, very good. done completely in first person too. the fighting is crazy awesome especially cuz it is in 1st person!
anyways, currently im watchin Vandread. its a pretty good show. for some reason... i just got really bored and spaced out. u wouldnt realize it just from readin this but ive been sittin here for a while...just staring...staring...
well happy new years to everyone, 2005 yea! feels weird