some action
07.26.05 (5:47 am) [edit]poem action. idk if its good, but i wrote some.
[u]So...love[/u]
A love so deep, i cannot breath
yet you arent even wet
so sweet, my mouth cant taste
yet yours is still so bitter
so strong it cant be stopped
but you havent even tried
What am i to you that makes me so real?
What does it all mean
what does it ever mean
when i say, "I love you"
when you say, "I'm sorry"
forgive and forget
you forgive, i am forgotted
a love so secret
you dont even know it exists
and heres another one
(currently untitled)
won't you love me?
im sorry that i am who i am
and not who you want
i would die just to hear you say my name
my life rests in your hands
will your lips please form the words?
pardon me
07.24.05 (5:48 am) [edit]well, i discoverd alot of new incubus music. incubus is my favorite band. i knew they had a new song from the Stealth OST, i did not know they had 3 new songs on that album. theyre all pretty good.
Admiration
Make a move
Neither of us Can See
yea. that, and i discovered my favorite song from them. Pardon Me. thats so good. and this other song i just found which is old, The Warmth. the guitar is insanely awesome in it. they make the whale singing sound with it in the begining. and its awesome
Pardon me while I burst.....
A decade ago, I never thought I would be
At twenty three, on the verge of
spontaneous combustion. Woe-is-me. But I
guess that it comes with the territory; an
ominous landscape of
never ending calamity
I need you to hear, I need you to see, that I have
had all I can take and
exploding seems like a definite possibility
to me.
So pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and its people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, pardon me...I’ll never be the same.
Not two days ago, I was having a look in a book and I saw a picture of a
guy
fried up above his knees
I said, "I can relate," ‘cause lately I've been thinking of combustication
as a welcomed vacation from
the burdens of the planet earth.
Like gravity, hypocrisy, and the perils of being in 3-D...
and thinking so much differently.
So pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world and its people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, pardon me...I’ll never be the same.
Never Be the same
Pardon me while I burst into flames.
Pardon me, pardon me, pardon me.
So pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world and its people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, pardon me... I’ll never be the same.
Pardon me, (I’ll) never be the same, yeah...
hmmm
07.22.05 (7:26 am) [edit]i am in a very good mood today. i dont know why. but i likes it. i need to do something tho....
hmmm
hmm
07.21.05 (6:01 am) [edit]i thought that last post would clear my ::sadness from thinking of the past:: but no. im not sad sad, just kinda... passive? if u could call it that. i dont know. im in that mood, that allows me to write poems or stories, or appreciate music more than i do, which is alot. im listening to Best of You from the foo fighters. the message really jumps out at you. theres a lot of things thats going on with me, nothing really important. well, its important to me. but im sure soon il realize that its just my teen niavete and the such. i guess this is where angst comes from? idk.
i feel like im lucky. lucky because usaully, if i want something, id get it. not thru begging my parents or anything like that. either id get money to buy it, or if its like a test the q's would be ones that i know. sometimes id have a project due, and not do anything on it. but id either do something at the last minute or my friend would call and ask if i wanted to be his partner. idk. theres alot of little things that keep my life comfortable. but the only thing im not lucky in is love. reminds me alot of that song, u guys dont know it. and thats what makes me sad.
hmm... it seems that im no longer in that mood. thats weird. change mid-post. o well. maybe it has something to do with music? idk. well, yesterday, we were bored. so we baked a cake! lol. it was alright, considering from scratch. then we watched Criss Angel: Mindfreak. a new magic show/illusion/stunt television show with criss angel. i never really liked him b4, cuz he was kinda goth. but he really is good. i love magic lol.
ooo i get it. i got tired of feeling bad. everyone should! its no use feeling bad if u can just feel happy.
nostalgia
07.19.05 (7:18 pm) [edit]how do i know when i love you? i dont. i just kinda... feel it. i dont know how to express it. i dont know what to say. i just know what i feel. sometimes, i just say things that i didnt want to say, but i mean them. not bad things, good things. things i didnt want to tell you just yet. things that can ruin or strengthen us. sometimes, i said them to you and you blushed. that made me feel happy. sometimes, i said them to you and you started to feel sad. sad because i dont know. maybe i said too much? i dont know. but it made you said. and that made me sad. one day i was up late, when i thought of you. i got scared. i dont know why. i became sad, and scared. the music i heard was depressing. my thoughts were a mess. my thoughts were of you.
the next day, you told me goodbye. i... i said goodbye too.
how do u know i no longer love you? now i know what to say, i know how to say it. i can express myself. whenever im away from you i dont feel like im missing something. im not reminded of you when i hear any song, see any movie, touch any person. i dont become sad or scared when something happens. im no longer sad to say goodbye.
a list i stole
07.19.05 (7:27 am) [edit]i stole this from amyleezealot (at least i remember). if not im sorry!!! but im sure it is. and besides, this is an old thing they had. props to amy
current mood: bored, HEAT STROKE!!!
current music: Of Montreal, incubus, random techno
current taste: pizza
current hair: blonde, spiked
current dress: shorts, shirtless and sockless
current grievance: no one is home :(
current annoyance: no one is home :( and its hot
current smell: ? well i showered
current longing: someone to get home so i can have fun
current game: atelier iris: eternal mana!
current thing I ought to be doing: hanging out with friends
current windows open: this
current desktop picture: desert? yea
current favourite artist: ummm
Art artist: too many artists...
Music artist: incubus, daft punk, damien rice
current favourite group: Of montreal
current book: Fell (for school) and Nausicaa manga
current cds in stereo: Of montreal, techno burned, fave songs burned
current colour of toenails: toenail colored?
current refreshment: pffff soda
current worry: girl i like might be changing schools
current crush: Evileye! and the above mentioned girl
current favourite celeb: Tom Cruise!!!
current time wasting wish: hanging out with friends!!!
current hate: nobody, nothing
golden ticket
07.19.05 (6:16 am) [edit]in light of willy wonka and charlie and the ... etc, i decided to write this.
willy wonka and the chocolate factory, the original movie that just about everyone loves. i have concluded, that even if it is not ur favorite movie, it is the greatest movie ever created. it has no faults, no boring, and it continues to delight everytime u see it. this movie is almost perfect.
finding a golden ticket? hwo could u handle the excitement u feel at that moment? all that adrenaline and energy boost u get, u have to do something. i think, i would seizure. lol. seriously tho, so excited that every muscle in ur body wants to move at the same time, so the only thing u can do is seizure. but thats just me
current situation
07.18.05 (3:26 pm) [edit]i am watching collateral!!!! excellent movie. very very good.
i have to buy the FF7 Advent Children dvd when it comes out, comes with a tshirt and cup and lotsa other stuff. i also wanna buy the collectors edition dvd of Labyrinth. i have the dvd, and the vhs. but not collectors edition!
heres the problem tho: i have no money. i have to pay cell phone bill, i owe my friend 51$ (40 for dane cook tickets, 11 for a cd).
i wanna watch Criss Angel: Mindfreak on wednesday. i hate goth people, but it does look cool. i have work tommorow.
i went to the library to get my summer english book. i got Fell. seems good.
and that is my current situation
cd adn chocolate
07.18.05 (5:11 am) [edit]well, i got my cd Of Montreal. its pretty good. havent listened to the whole thing yet. and i saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. it was pretty good. i keep comparing it to the original tho, which makes it crap. sigh. i am so bored. gotta go to the library later to get that book.
a deep...er post?
07.15.05 (5:00 pm) [edit]i decided to post something smarter.. er that is, not retarded or boring.
well well well... lets see here....
dreams. no, not the sleep ones. how important is it to have dreams? very. without a dream, u would have nothing. nothing to live for, nothing to strive for, nothing to keep u going. nothing. why else would you be at a job you hate? why else would you put up with little insignificancies? why else would you be... you? that is why everyone has a dream. dont have one? yes u do. it may be small, but its there. u may not realize it, but its there.
sadly tho, that is all they are. dreams. some dreams are attainable, yes. but most dreams are there just to motivate you. you think about it, and u get excited. makes u wanna accomplish it faster. it helps u live an average, mediocre life, while pretending you one day will be big. but we cant all be big, or else who would serve the fries, right? but they must be dreams. once u accomplish them, u have nothing left. you must find a new, better dream. if u cant, life is basically over. its like a video game. once u beat everything, what else is there to do in it? u dont really wanna play anymore.
so tell me, what is your dream? what keeps u going?
mine is to own my own production company. one that produces... everything. whats yours?
new quotes
07.15.05 (5:48 am) [edit]well, i found these 2 new quotes. one from trinity blood, the other from i forget.
great minds discuss plans. average minds discuss events. small minds discuss people
and the other one:
Ye who stand executed, thy sins be eternal, and yet i shall pray for the deceased.
yea. dane cook! http://www.danecook.com
uneventful
07.14.05 (4:11 am) [edit]well, here i am. its like 10am and im tired as all hell. no more stayin up late for me. i really dont have anything to post. my life has been that uneventful the last few days. ummm i did go to the zoo and i went fishing. dunno if i said thta already.
at the zoo they had new baby tigers but they were sleepin. and i saw the wolves! it was cool. i also put in one of those penny machines where u turn thr crank and it flattens it out and makes a design on it. course, i got a wolf.
at fishin, i caught like 5. for some reason or another the fish werent really bitin at all, so no one else caught any.
and thats about it. dane cook!!! check him out. hes the man http://www.danecook.com
barrel!
07.12.05 (5:19 am) [edit]i have discovered 2 things...
when u get more characters in the game, eternal mana, each one will yell "Barrel!" when u check it. also, each barrel will disappear when a certain character says yells it. so thats cool.
grr i wanna learn piano. lol.
its funny cuz no one cares
cook
07.10.05 (6:18 am) [edit]havent posted in a while. yesterday, i saw fatastic 4! it was pretty good. the only problem: it seemed to focus more on them trying to fix themselves. it needed more superhero action.
i went to the mall, and i got my game and 4 books. game: Atelier Iris: Eternal Mana. its a oldschool type rpg, with newer stuff added. ur an alchemist, and u get to create stuff. its fun just breaking everything u see down tho lol. rock! ::break down:: barrel! ::break down:: its funny cuz he actually yells "Barrel!" when u check one. the books: Samurai Deeper Kyo 13 and 14, GetBackers vol 10, and a new book called Chrono Code. idk what its about, but it looks cool
im goin to see Dane Cook in NY on sept 15! wo0t
Of Montreal
07.06.05 (4:01 pm) [edit]i found a new band i might be interested in. im gonna get one of their cds, they are Of Montreal. some pretty good songs ive heard so far. anyone heard of them? leave me acomment to tell me if theyre good
independence day!
07.04.05 (3:38 pm) [edit]hello everyone! how are we on this fine independance day? enjoying our day off are we? good. lol
well lets seeeee....
we started watchin a new anime. its called Trinity Blood. anyone whose seen Hellsing can see the resemblance between them. So far, what i got out of it was there is major conflict between the vatican, and creatures that they call Vampires (cuz they suck blood). the vampires aparently hate the terrans (their name for humans), and they are not only wicked fast and excellent tacticians, theyre not mindless bloodsuckers as we always portray them. and the main character is a vampire to the vampires. that is, he sucks the blood of other vampires. and hes got an awesome scythe/staff thingy with a chain on it he can make from his blood, and it is very dangerous and awesome looking. its pretty good.
hmm... i got alot of new music too. some band Of Montreal, they have a aweosme song called Wraith Pinned to the Mist and Other Games. that is a very catchy song. and even tho i dont really like punk, Ohio is for Lovers. il be damned if that isnt an excellent song. from hawthorne heights.
also, i saw War of the Worlds and Land of the Dead. War of the Worlds was a very good movie. u know how those old blakc and white movies of alien invasions, the space ships or alien thing looked all fake and out of place? well, in this movie when u see the alien robot thingy it reminds u so much of those movies, that it brings back that nostalgic feeling and makes the movie that much better. they did that very well. awesome action scenes and destructions. my fave part was when tom cruise blindfolded his daughter and went in the other room, took care of his business with that guy lol. if u seen it, u know what i mean. land of the dead sucked tho.
takeru kobayashi! 49 hot dogs in 12 minutes. how can something so trivial be so entertaining? that guy is my hero. 5th year in a row.