boring

09.21.05 (7:21 am)   [edit]
im rarely on anymore. ive no free time! between school, work, social life, and pimp, i just cant seem to find any time. i had a half day, so today i got some time. heh heh

hows it going? pretty good. who cares? no one! lol
im gonna tell u's anyway!

lotsa lotsa music. i got a list from a girl in my class, like 40 bands. i have to check them all out.

and right now im eating. yep. thats about it...
and theres tons of other stuff goin on i cant really "discuss", some bad, some good, some amazing.

day trip

09.16.05 (6:44 pm)   [edit]
well, i went to NY for the day and saw dane cook. let me start at the begining-

as we were walking out of grand central, i saw a lady running, then get pickpocketed from some guy who bumped into her. that was cool. he was good, very good. the lady didnt even realise it till she got way far up and was looking around like 'wha?'

then, we basically walked around alot. theres like a mcdonalds EVERYWHERE. went down to times square, then over to espn zone. they had some NASCAR racers there, on tv signin autographs. my friends dad got on camera, idk if on tv heh heh. and a huge arcade zone place.

we went to Virgin megastore. that is the single greatest place ive ever been. thousands of cds, and movies, and they have some places to hang out, and some anime and listening stations. its just... beautiful. i got 30 Seconds to Mars cd, i like them and wanted it. and we saw the ultimate bean bag, but instead it has like memory foam or somthin in it, and u can fluff it back. they had ones so big, it would eat u. in fact, there was one sooo big, they didnt have it in the store... and u must take a test to see if u can handle it... no lie. my friend is getting one lol

the hershey store! worlds largest hershey bar, 5 lbs of chocolate! it was huuuge

i also walked to hells kitchen. not the show, the area. u see Daredevil? then ud know.

i high fived the naked cowboy!!!

at MSG, we waited and saw dane cook. dane cook is a silly bitch. lol. it was taped too, so itl probable be on tv. crazy awesome. the warm up comedian was funny too. shut up and get the jelly u twat!!!! lol. rock quotes. ul see....

all in all, it was fun. i kinda felt like a country boy there... my clothes were all different from what everyone wore... idk. it was weird. i was all left out... it was fun tho.


and on a final note, i may have finally found myself. kinda in that spiritual sense, but more like my place. not in society, but in like social-ness. u know? liek... the way i act is no longer inconsistent. if i knew the person, id be more comfortable around. around someone i didnt know, id usually be quiet. like i said in a way way way back post, my personality did change, but now i act every way with everyone. it evened out on both sides... like how i act with friends and with strangers. im happy.

the greater tradegy

09.09.05 (7:07 pm)   [edit]
wow. this is a strange occurance.
everyone is aware of the immense damge hurricane katrina has caused. (i know what ur thinking, 'another blog about hurricane victims? pfff.' but b4 u go thinking that, just wait). some 10s of thousands possibly dead, thousands missing, damage caused astronomical. and even still, the water must be drained. and then we must deal with a potential biohazard site from the extreme pollution and dead bodies in that water. is New orleans even usable anymore?

and then we shift our thoughts to this sunday... what day is it? its the anniversery of 9/11. the day someone [i]dared [/i]to attack my beautiful country. the day we will never forget. 2 of NY important work places and landmarks collapsed, taking down most of the surrounding buildings. 100s of firefighters and close to 2500 victums altogether. truly, a day to be remembered.

now, i know this doesnt matter, and it shouldnt. but my personal opinion, is which one is the greater tradegy? u cant really compare the 2. but, i would have to say 9/11 is. the hurricane, yes caused more death, destruction and irreversible damage. but 9/11 was done purposely. u cant stop nature from happening, but human beings actually decided to waste the lives of thousands just to try and prove their point. someone actually thought it was a good thing to do such a horrible act. this is something that could have been stopped, just by a simple conscience. but it wasnt. watching the videos of it, and the planes hitting the towers and everyones reactions... just brings a tear to ur eye. its terrible. ud expect this kind of thing from nature... but from [i]people?[/i] it sickens me.

whats been up

09.06.05 (3:46 pm)   [edit]
finally, i had my very own 3 day weekend. one for school, one for work. today ends my work one. all we did, was we bought 2 good movies and watched them, and we bought cookied dough! well, i did. and i ate the entire stick. on sat., i ate about half till i threw up. then i finished it sunday. i just bought more today lol. i feel kinda sick...

and despite my 3day weekends, i somehow managed to not get any sleep. idk y

i wanna go on road trips again!!! those r fun. i want to go out of state next time tho. im going to vermont with my freinds next summer, and i also want to plan one to multiple states. like ohio is a def. lol. ive always wanted to go there.


thats all ive been doing in my life. sry i dont have any interesting things to say. pre calc is very hard, and math was always my best subject!! o well, il try. but i dont really want to be in school. i wanna stay home, hang out all day and go places. typical teen right? good. i havent felt this way ever, till this summer started. and it makes me happy... so very happy.

what doesnt make me happy, is i cant find anyone to go out with. i sound like http://evileye.tblog.com/ evileye dont i? well, its not really that i cant.. i just cant focus on anyone else. sigh. i am and have been in love with this one girl, ive had ti since 2nd grade and it grows each day. we're friends, and hanging out is good enough for me... dont try to say things like 'go for it' cuz ive tried, there are reasons i cannot explain to u guys that have nothing to do with me.

another thing, i cant seem to catch the bus. like this morning, i sleepwalked over to my alarm and shut it off. without knowing. that sucks!!!!

new stuff

09.02.05 (7:25 pm)   [edit]
it has come to my attention, that trying to balance a social life between school and work is very hard. i averaged it out, and i spent (not counting weekends at all)
45 hours on school
25 hours on work
30 hours sleeping

which leaves me with about 5 hours a day. 1 in the morning, 1 at night, 2 doing whatever, 1 getting ready for work. thats not much time at all. remember, this is NOT counting weekends. only during the week. i havent even had time to talk to evileye!!!! :(

and school is much easier. i dont have the last period, so i can just leave. physics got easier, i have economics which is easy, english is the same difficulty but i love english, but math got way harder. very way harder. :(

ok ok, theres a hurricane going on. lots of people are suffering and dying. i want to care, and i want to feel sad about them. but i dont. idk y, but it doesnt effect me unless im watching it or hearing it. and then, it doesnt affect me when im no longer watching or hearing. i know i should, but idk if i dont care cuz it doesnt effect me, or that even if i was in that situation i still wouldnt care? its always been my dream to declare and lead martial law... lol. see? i can even crack a joke at it.
does this make me a bad person? i feel like a bad person..